I miss things.

Friends

I really miss my friends in Florida. I miss being in middle and high school and always having someone (or multiple someones) that wanted to see me and easily made the effort to do so. Even as we got older and our intimate lives got a bit more complicated, I never felt unsure or hesitant about reaching out and calling them when I needed to talk or get out, and I was always open to them reaching out to me any time. I know when I'm finally home they'll accept me into their homes with open arms. They are more like my family than my friends.

I really miss my friends in Buffalo. I initially had a really tough time getting out and making friends when I moved to NY. It's easy to make superficial friends, but really hard to find the ones that actually want to get to know you. I didn't make many close friends, but the ones I did make were wonderful. They accepted me quickly and easily and I miss them dearly.

I miss my foreign coteachers. Not the ones that were douchey or loners, but the ones that would have movie nights or binge-show watching nights with me. Now that I work alone, I feel alone most of the time. Sometimes it's not so bad or I need the time alone, but other times it's really bad and I no longer know who I can reach out to anymore. I'm really stupid about how to be social.

Family

I miss my mom.
I miss my dad.
I miss my stepmom.
I miss my grandparents.
I miss big family dinners and people saying things about politics or social issues to royally irritate me.

Food

I miss restaurants that served food I could always rely on.
I miss grocery stores that were decent and had what I needed so I didn't have to order things online from halfway around the world to stock my pantry.

Work

I miss sick days. I haven't had one in over 2 years, and trust me, I've been ill.
I miss having a supervisor that was even remotely sympathetic to loss.