The Facebook Break - Blog Reawakening

I haven't posted in such a long time, but things have been so crazy in Korea. So crazy. I'm taking a break from Facebook right now. Ideally it would be permanent, but sadly I know society these days won't allow that and still let me be social and in-the-know. I was laid off from my previous school halfway through my second contract and put in the position of going home before my debt was paid off or find a new job - quickly. I found a new job hastily and am regretting my impatience, but only a little bit. I should have tried for an after school program job, not another hagwon, but such is life. I wound up with a new school that has me working many more classes per week than I had been previously, leaving me feeling exceptionally drained most days of the week. Some consolidation was done to lower me down to legal hour limits (oh yeah, they had me working illegal amounts of classes for the first two months), but I still feel overwhelmed at times teaching 7 classes straight without breaks two days of the week. I moved to Daegu. Daegu has a great -massive- foreigner base compared to Daejeon. I finally found a niche I truly fit in with, which is something I'd never experienced in Daejeon. I met a guy. I met a guy I really liked. I mean I really, really, really liked him. He was freshly out of a bad breakup and still hurting pretty intensely. I noticed it occasionally in faces he made when he thought no one was looking or when he sighed deeply, but he made an effort not to let it poison what we had. I only knew of the ex from others as a warning to be careful. I was, but I wasn't prepared for what was coming. He passed away exactly 4 weeks after I met him thanks to being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I think he might have ended things with me had he not died, but losing him entirely was - and still is - a very painful thing for me. He was a wonderful person and a wonderful friend. I hope to be so lucky as to meet someone just as sweet and caring as him again. I'm ready to go home. There have been some really great things in Korea and some really terrible things. I try not to let the terrible overshadow the wonderful, but it's hard sometimes. Maybe I won't stay home forever, maybe my sea legs will kick in again and I'll come back or go somewhere new. Only time will tell. Life is a scary thing for me right now, but I'm hoping to overcome that.